Tuesday, August 21, 2007

Honesty always the best policy?

I don't know what to do anymore. I couldn't sleep all night and now it's morning. I can't even say that we are arguing really because I tried to end it on a semi-good note. Only because that's how I always try to do it - I never like ending anything mad.

But what do you do when someone so close to you has said something so hurtful, and so mean that you don't even know what to say? Should you let it affect your life as much as you have let anything else they have said to you/about you?

Part of me says no, you should keep going on with your life, don't let it get to you. But the other part of me, the part of me that holds compassion and love for this person is telling me to feel so crappy. I feel like I'm no longer good enough to go out into public with anyone.

I will always be his friend, no matter what he has said to me - but it's the initial hurt that hits, and that you can't shake away right away.

1 comment:

goosey said...

I'm sorry, girl. Well, feelings are feelings. We can't control them. I'm sorry that ur feelings were hurt. Maybe he didn't think it would affect you this way. So, let urself go thru the cycle of hurt & something else will turn up besides pain. Much love :-)